Senior Evals

The faculty met to do Senior Evaluations this week.

I was feeling anxious because I'm all too aware of my various short-comings. I know I'm not expected to be a perfect human being, but I'd wanted to make even more progress on some stuff than I have so far.

So I sought out my advisor the next day, told him I was feeling anxious, could he share anything with me briefly - since we were on our way to Chapel. He said that I had nothing to be concerned about and that he actually wanted to get together with me so that he could share with me some of the positive things that were said. That would be good. Since I've been trying to change various things I've been spending more time thinking about the negatives, so it would be nice to hear some of the positives. I'm a pretty self-aware person, so I don't know if what was said will really take me by surprise, (who knows, maybe it will?) but in any event it would be good to have that affirmation.

Sometimes I get caught up in the details of living out this call from God (i.e. what I have to do for the seminary and for the Commission on Ministry and the Bishop, etc.) and lose sight of the fact that this was not my idea in the first place, that God called me for a reason. That I have been faithful in being obedient to that call. Now that we are nearing GOEs and our final semester and look toward future ministry I need to be reminded to trust in God. I am not supposed to be doing this on my own but with God's help.