Last week went okay. Vestry meeting seemed fine and productive. The weather has been changing some so I've wondered if allergies are surfacing and I think the infection issue from Fall was trying to resurface too. No matter what the cause(s) near the end of the week I was feeling very tired.
I will admit that I let some of the outside and my own internal criticism get to me, because I think I was also feeling a bit mentally tired too. Not like my spirit was broken, but a little bruised by life.
I had put in extra hours again the previous week/early in the week - much on worship planning, which *is* my area, not something that can be handed off. So over the weekend I just admitted I had to rest.
I had to let go of bread baking and use hosts (I did have some alternative store bought bread, but it does't break up/tear apart as easily so opted not to use it). I had to let go of correcting a typo in the bulletin that was found on Friday after it was printed and just do a verbal acknowlegement of the mistake. Not my best sermon, had to be okay with that. But also be okay with the fact that I think I did give folks some food for thought.
Since email has delivered criticism lately, I find myself avoiding opening it today, almost out of self-preservation. I feel myself waiting to open it until I've shored up myself today to handle whatever mystery might be waiting for me there (although odds are there is nothing there I'd consider stressful).
So, a whole new week now. Trying to adjust my attitude and regain my normal optimism. I'm looking at Sunday's readings and pondering them and where one might go with them.
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