Dream this a.m.

Well the whole "talk" with G must be rolling around in my subconscious or something (see yesterday's post). This morning just before my alarm started to go off I had a dream with him in it.

The two of us were somewhere alone and we seemed to be working on something (details are getting blurry now). It seemed like he was making some hints around becoming more intimate or taking things to another level, but I was trying to stay focused on the task at hand, and not entirely sure of how I felt so I was kind of playing it down and refusing to take the hint. Finally in the dream he said something like, "you know what, I'm just going to do it." And then he took the initiative, and leaned around to kiss me. I was a little surpised but decided not to fight it because maybe that was something that would finally help me sort things out.

In the dream the kiss was a little awkward, like you might imagine from 2 folks who hadn't made out with someone in a while, but my impression now is that I did not have the feeling like "nope" and want to pull away, and I don't even think I had a blank ho-hum non-reaction. But on the other hand I was not having that all revved up hormones in overdrive, can't get enough, eletricity/chemistry feeling either. It was more a feeling of curiosity and a recognition that perhaps with a little "practice" it could have possibilities.

Weird. Anway those are my impressions of the dream.

I was up late writing and pondering about an issue that has nothing to do with anything I need to be working on at the present moment *headshake* so only got about 5 to 6 hours of sleep.

Now I need to get a move on to see how one puts together a parochial report to send to their diocese and the national church at my field ed parish. Supposed to take communion to "S" later this afternoon when she gets back from the doctor's, but should call first to see if she's feeling up to it. Then tonight we have our Christian Ed committee meeting.

So somewho I need to fit some productive moments between those various things.